Tonight I did something that I wasn't sure that I could do. It's not the first time I have had those thoughts, that is for sure.
Quite a few months ago I received an email from Kim Maxwell, founder of Moving Soles Running Club. She asked me if I would speak to her women running club. She felt I'd be motivational to her group and that I could share my experiences with them.
I opened her email at work and immediately said to myself "oh my gosh, I couldn't do that" "why would anyone want to listen to what I have to say" "what would I say" "too scary, I can't speak in front of a group" etc. On and on the all too familiar tape played on in my head. You can't. You are not good enough. Negative negative negative negative.
Stop it. Start the tape over. I am an experienced runner, I do have stories, some people say I motivate and inspire them. I have wished many times that I had someone to listen to about their running, their experiences, someone to learn from.
So accept the invitation.
I did. I emailed back to Kim that I would speak to her group. We sent the date for March 5. It was so far in the future, but I thought about it every day. I worried about it. What would I say?
Yesterday I typed out an outline. I began with an introduction of myself, the drinking, the eating, getting sober, Oprah, running, races, the friends I have met, coaching.
Today I had a stomach ache all day. I was nervous about the speaking engagement and excited about leaving for TX tomorrow morning.
I arrived at the Concordia Academy 30 minutes before my meeting with Kim. Enough time to sit down and take deep breaths.
Kim and the group were fantastic. I met the runners as they arrived, I was a nervous wreck.
Kim introduced me..I began to talk..and talk..and laugh..and talk some more.
I spoke for 45 minutes without stopping! I had a great time! I acknowledged my nervousness right at the beginning and then it went away. I had stories and experiences to share.
After I finished speaking the members of the club asked questions; I was so relieved that they had listened and were truly interested.
Another lesson learned: Step out of the comfort zone. Inspire, motivate..share. This was a learning experience for me, too. I enjoyed it greatly.
Thank you to Kim and the Moving Soles. I enjoyed tonight, very much.
My flight leaves at 730 AM. I better double check my packing. Fun in the Sun; Here I Come!